no judgement zone.
April 4, 2024
It should not be this hard for me to say this. It’s actually taken me three days of back and forth to work up the nerve to address it. I’m lucky enough to have services at CMH. Part of those services have me assigned a “Parent Support Partner.” That parent has been through much of the same things and can actually relate to what this all feels like. There is no judgement coming from her. After going back and forth with her this morning, I came to the conclusion that dropping it here was my best bet.
So, with all that said, Daytime Emmy Nominee will be staying with us. For how long, I don’t know. I don’t know if it is the right thing to do, no one does. I’m going to let this run its course. She has 36 more instructional days left of high school. That’s it. I cannot be another potential barrier for her, or contribute to creating another potential barrier.
As we all know, I am attached to Daytime Emmy Nominee. She does put me through the wringer, I know that. What you some don’t get to see first hand is that near all of them put me through the wringer. Their abuse isn’t as public as Daytime Emmy Nominee, and mostly reserved for the privacy of home, (thank goodness for that). That does not make it any less real.
She has asked for another chance, and thus far it has been pretty good. I’m trying to keep each day focused on the wins not only with her, but with all our kiddos. Hubby struggles with glass half full mentality, but I think he’s working on it for my benefit. He doesn’t really see it as a problem. I guess I deal with the negative and the dramatics all day long, I need to hang on to the positive crap to see me through. Happy thoughts only, people. Win for today, all the precious ones are on day two of getting along. I’m not sure if this is real life, if I’ve actually died, I am asleep and dreaming, or this is some type of trick they are using to get me to let my guard down. Whatever it is, I’ll take it as a positive. Unless I really am dead, in which case, not so much a win. Hopefully hubby figures out how to feed the children in my absence.
Opened the silverware drawer to find only one salad fork left. I left me feeling like things were back to normal, at least what is my normal.
So, with all that said, Daytime Emmy Nominee will be staying with us. For how long, I don’t know. I don’t know if it is the right thing to do, no one does. I’m going to let this run its course. She has 36 more instructional days left of high school. That’s it. I cannot be another potential barrier for her, or contribute to creating another potential barrier.
As we all know, I am attached to Daytime Emmy Nominee. She does put me through the wringer, I know that. What you some don’t get to see first hand is that near all of them put me through the wringer. Their abuse isn’t as public as Daytime Emmy Nominee, and mostly reserved for the privacy of home, (thank goodness for that). That does not make it any less real.
She has asked for another chance, and thus far it has been pretty good. I’m trying to keep each day focused on the wins not only with her, but with all our kiddos. Hubby struggles with glass half full mentality, but I think he’s working on it for my benefit. He doesn’t really see it as a problem. I guess I deal with the negative and the dramatics all day long, I need to hang on to the positive crap to see me through. Happy thoughts only, people. Win for today, all the precious ones are on day two of getting along. I’m not sure if this is real life, if I’ve actually died, I am asleep and dreaming, or this is some type of trick they are using to get me to let my guard down. Whatever it is, I’ll take it as a positive. Unless I really am dead, in which case, not so much a win. Hopefully hubby figures out how to feed the children in my absence.
Opened the silverware drawer to find only one salad fork left. I left me feeling like things were back to normal, at least what is my normal.
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